slip of the tongue

The tongue is a small thing, but what enormous damage it can do 

-unknown

I believe that this phrase will be a healer to my thoughts lately, its been more than 600 days but i still can hear the name that remind me of something - not someone - but something she did. what is my thought? "everyone is having their consciousness" and everything they did is the result or the idea of consciousness or the worst is subconsciousness. 

The point is.. what if you say something "not wrong" but "not proper" is it because you want it? or your brain want it? or is just slip of the tongue?

This past 2 months, i learn about Tafakur. the way human brain and heart help and support each other to respond an issue. think carefully, act patiently, talk politely and be respectful.. and it works for some cases. the effect? i'm getting lazy to be concerned about some problem because it will bring me the desire to get angry but i think this one is better than the previous one, i felt like everyone is having wrong attitude and i am the one who can resolve the problem with anger. 

Back to the topic, slip of the tongue.. i choose this title because i need it. i need to find another thing to see instead of blaming on others. too naive? well.. one more time, i don't care. i think therefore i don't have to feel, how? yes.. if nothing goes right, go left? its different with running away. running is tiring but moving the intention is easier to do. 

Bismillah.. the almighty having a big plan for me. it doesn't matter how long should i be called "that name" or how deep the wound will be.. but i love to be myself, i love my journey, i love everything i had.. even my sickness. if you think these article is too fragile please think twice.. you're not a god, you're not someone who can arrange anyone to follow your standard. for me.. i have to talk carefully to avoid misconception, all the idea in my brain will bursting out and maybe will hurt someone who don't want to understand me. so.. read as much as you like, once you leave this page,, just forget all the cathartic you got from my blog.

inhale exhale.. and go back to life!